Faye and Angel

In my last blog you read about special friends. I have the most amazing and supportive friends and family who help us out a lot, but there are two of my best friends who we really couldn't live without, Faye and Angel. They are the most amazing couple and most amazing friends. They are not only my friends but their like family. I've never met anyone as selfless or more willing to do anything they can to help other people. They make me smile every time I see them, laugh when I'm sad, are my shoulder to cry on, hold my hand when I need support, give me advice, tell me when I'm being stupid or when I need to do something for myself. But above all this they have provided the best support network Ethan and I could ever need.

Faye and Angel have been there for both myself and Ethan through everything. This journey has bought highs and kows and Faye and Angel have been there through all of them. Their two of a very small handful of people I can truly count on to be there for me and Ethan. They unconditionally love Ethan and have never treated Ethan any differently. They look after Ethan with such care and ensure he is involved in everything. They are thoughtful and always ensure Ethan's presents are catered for his needs and will truly be able to allow him to use them. They are always up for fundraising and getting involved in whatever crazy idea I have next to raise money! 

Faye and Angel are Ethan's godparents and I truly believe I couldn't have made a better choice. Ethan absolutely adores them both. Ethan responds to the sound of both of their voices and truly knows who they are. He smiles and laughs with them both and is more than content when he is with them. I know that I can fully trust them with my precious baby boy because I know that they want what's best for Ethan and that they would never treat him any differently to their own children. Ethan adores their children because they have been bought up so well and really reflect the amazingness of their parents.

It's very rare in life to find people like this who would do anything for you, who would drop anything to be there to help or to help make our life easier. They truly support us and take an interest in everything we do and have to go through. I know their always at the end of the phone or a short drive away. I feel truly honoured to have them as my friends and honestly love them to pieces. Mine and Ethan's life wouldn't be the same without them and We would both like to say a huge thankyou to you both for all you do for us. We love you both and thankyou for being our amazing friends and for being a huge and special part of our life. People come and go but I know you will be a part of our lives forever.

Special friends

So this special journey were on brings such highs and lows everyday. When I think we've had a rough week with seizures and no sleep I then look around and see we're not suffering as much as others we know. Having a child who has a life limiting condition is hard because along with it we meet other children who are more vulnerable than Ethan, families who are suffering every single day, families whose children don't make it through, children who are put through pain every single day, brave children who still continue to smile even though their suffering but more than that families who unconditionally love their children no matter what.

However hard this special journey is without it we wouldn't have met the amazingly strong families and built such strong new friendships. I have amazing friends and family who accept Ethan for who he is, but no one truly understands our special journey as much as those who are actually on the same special journey. They understand the lack of sleep, the prejudice our children face, the looks of discust because our children are different, the heartache of seeing our children have seizures, the hard reality that our children may never walk or talk or be able to do things for them selves and the fact that our children can't tell us how they feel or how their condition really affects them.

On this journey unfortunately not all of our special children make it through. Whilst we can all feel the pain of the families going through it, you just can't fully feel that pain of loosing a child until you have gone through it yourself. I cannot imagine how hard it must be for these parents. We can do our best to be there and support but for these families the only people who can truly help them is those in the same position. 

Every day I am reminded of the harsh reality of this life. I treasure every moment I have with my special boy and will continue to hold him tight and bring happiness to him every day. Having people on the same journey makes it easier to understand how your feeling. Seeing how strong others going through harder situations is what keeps me strong. I try to not moan about the hard times as I know that just round the corner someone else is going through a harder time than me. I put to you today to live your life without regrets, love those who are close to you and treasure every precious moment you have with your children. Imagine how others are feeling before you complain about your own life or how your child is acting up. I would love more than anything for Ethan to be running around causing havoc and being "normal". The most important thing is to remember someone else is worse off.

My son is special and is loved unconditionally no matter what. He makes me smile every day and amazes me with his strength and determination. He has special friends who are even stronger and it amazes me that no matter what's thrown at them they carry on. Their bodies go through so much and it's so unfair. But their here with us and that's all we need to remember and treasure. They are no different to other children and I thank those of you who see them as no different. My heart goes out to those who have lost their special children on this special journey and pray you will find strength to live on in their memory and make them proud. 

To all my special friends you are amazing  and so are your special children. Thankyou for understanding and helping us through.